19 year old me

I was thinking back to what would have helped me when I was a lost nineteen year old. There was always the huge undercurrent feeling I had of something was wrong. Maybe I was wrong. The deeper thoughts that played like a muffled irritating radio: "I'm autistic that means I'm wired wrong", "Having hemochromatosis means my genetics are wrong", "My Mother did not keep me, maybe I'm not good enough". I could be here all day talking about the thoughts that swirled around my brain. 

Tough Love Doesn't Work On My Mental Illness

Your tough love doesn't work on my mental illness. Period. Your dismissive attitude towards me  doesn't work on my mental illness either. I head the words "snap out of it" or "man up" or "other people have things worse than you". But, these words don't encourage me. They only make me feel worthless and hopeless and that I am a DIY project that needs fixing. 

Inside my bordeline mind

People want to know what it feels like to live with BPD (emotional unstable personality disorder. FACTS: Bpd is a serious mental illness / disorder which affect the personality functions of a person through their emotional dysregulation. It feels like you aren't living at all some days and others feeling so alive, sometimes too alive. You are someone that feels the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Some days you can feel somewhat normal but you are easily triggered by the smallest of things.  Feeling unheard is a thing we battle a lot even when spoken too, we read into things more than others, B y the way someone looks at their watch while talking to you. Makes you feel unheard. Being easily triggered sets you off... you quickly abandon everything. Everything goes. Relationships are hard, you find yourself pushing everyone away even though the voice within you want you to keep them near, for security. But you are also very aware your behaviours will strain relati...

AA skincare essentials collection - Frankincense & Rose Toner

If you have read my blog previously you will know that I am a huge fan of AA Skincare or otherwise known as Amphora Aromatics. The lovely people at AA Skincare yet again sent me some goodies to try and review so that’s what I’m doing today.  The AA Skincare Essentials range has recently been reimaged and reformulated. It’s packed with natural ingredients that offer a natural solution to a spectrum of skincare problems. The products are made with natural extracts, pure essential oils and are free of parabens and artificial colours. What more could you ask from a brands products? If that doesn’t make you want to buy from them well... their core values are sourcing the best quality ingredients and creating innovative formulas at an affordable price. Affordable skincare is a HUGE yes yes from me.  I was sent the Francincense and Rose face toner  which retails at £7.98.  It is a calming and balancing face toner which can be used on all skin types to rejuvenate and rehyd...

Five things I wish people knew about BPD

Living with BPD, in my experience, comes with a double whammy of difficulties. As if the various aspects of borderline personality disorder are not difficult enough, the condition tends to be very misunderstood and stigmatised.   These are the top 5 things I wish people understood about my BPD. But please before I get started remember everyone with a BPD diagnosis is an individual and so your list may look very different to mine! But that’s okay! So here is my list....